People are intriguing , our postures, facial expressions, our ability to go into a trance even in the most hectic of places. We are full of habits and emotions . Sometimes busy in our own lives we forget to take a minute to just observe, to study the going-ons around us. I am always surprised when doing street photography by the amount of ‘ walking-by stories’ going on, everyone has their own unique story. I have seen people dancing in the streets! people arguing, throwing stuff at each other in an uncontrolled fit. I am always amused by people falling asleep on the trains in London, particularly people at lunchtime! have they missed their stop? People make me laugh with their loudly spoken ” secret” phone calls , cryptic name-drops and put downs. Whenever I go out their always seems to be an old man or a small group of old men, chilling out watching the world go by, always happy to speak to me and find out what I am up to. The pigeons weave their way around the people, their lives seems so much more simple then ours.
After spending too much time in London museums lately I find myself making this strange comparison, locating a photograph in all my files on my computer is a bit like trying to find a particular specimen at the Natural History Museum, totally time consuming and you always find something else that distracts you. Cant remember what I went looking for on my computer but ended up finding these self portraits, um not sure what I was thinking when I took these? but i think i had watched Inception and was feeling a little inspired by ” dream within a dream ‘ thing ! . Think they were taken a couple of years ago , looking at the colour of my hair, which is now a darker shade of chocolate brown.
POSITIVE THOUGHT – Because January can be a little bit depressing at times !
Fresh thought for 2015 – All of those difficult experiences, will nearly always add-up to something positive, even though when they are happening it never feels like any positive will come of it.
This is an exercise I have seen in several self-help books and I have found it works for me, so give it a try. Think of something in the last year that has been tough to experience, then think what you have learnt from it and the positive that has come of the learning process.
My example – I had a small operation that had complications, it was scary at the time and now requires check-ups , which still scares me… but I have learnt that I am more compassionate because of it and the positive is that I am now challenging myself more and finding the time for others when once i was too ‘ busy’ .
Photography by me of course x
I spent the beginning of last year visiting the Somme area of France, the area of France most ravaged by the First World War. This is where the fierce fighting happened, and its not difficult to understand that the landscape is still scarred from the conflict 100 years on. I feel passionate about revealing the consequences and lasting effects of wars, through my photography I hope to explore this, in a contemporary yet sympathetic manner.
I spent the first day of my documentary project in a place called High Woods . It was here that I took many photographs on an 1970’s Nikon camera. The problem was that the back of the camera sprang open while I was photographing! Meaning all my photographs would be ruined by the sunlight. I had come all that way and decided to just carry on. When I got back to England and developed the film I was surprised to see that all the photographs were perfect apart from one. The camera back had opened in full sunlight and in theory the whole film or most of it should be ruined! … but it was not.
However this is not the only unexplained thing to happen. I took a photograph of a farmers field ( near where my camera back stung open ) and when I came to print it a halo was over the field. Who knows what it is or why its there, but for me it reminds me that landscapes have a past. Technical fault or the past trying to reach the present? I know what I believe.